I’m reconsidering suicide right now.

Contemplating it.

Thinking of a plan.

Pills are out of the question, I don’t have nearly enough of any pills to OD. Slitting my wrists is incredibly hard, especially with the razors I have. Don’t have a gun. The only near by body of water is a pond, which really only goes up to my waist. The ocean is waaay out in Downtown. There’s a rope outside, but it isn’t very long and I can’t hang myself with it. No trains nearby, no high buildings, no car for carbon monoxide. 

That leaves me with stabbing myself, running in front of a car, or plastic bag over my head. 

I like the plastic bag and running in front of a car idea.

I shall update you later on what I decide on.